“What did I do wrong?”

I ask myself when looking back in the past when I called you my father

“Do you even care?”

I ask myself as I see you walk by with your new family 

“ Why do you hate me?”

I ask myself as you deliberately try every way to ignore my existence

“Why do I even care?”

Why does it hurt every ounce of my body to see you with someone new

“Do you even love me?”

Why don’t you care about your other children and our well-being

“Why do I keep going back to you?”

I ask myself as I look for every possible way to find connection with you

“Do you want to see how I’ve grown up?”

It's been 18 years since you’ve left and not one phone call, letter, or message came from you

It's been a long 18 years with tons of ups and downs but you were just an obstacle that I defeated and now I’m onto the next…

I did it all without you