She was looking at the child. But when looking at the child, she was not really seeing the child. Instead, she was seeing herself as the child she had once been. She had never examined herself in this way when she actually was a child, being too busy at that time embodying her child self: building with her child self’s Tinker Toys, for example, or burying her child self’s doll in the dirt. And so now, she is not sure if when looking at this child, she is seeing herself as she really was when she was a child, seeing the child she imagines herself to have been which may or may not have any relation to the actual child she once was, or seeing the child in front of her, who may in fact bear no resemblance to herself as a child or even to herself at the present moment.